The Truth

hmmm

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 19:52:02 GMT

July 23rd... hmm.. 6 more days including today until i get to see her again... i need to see her... i need her back... each day that passes without her is like torture... i can feel myself moving slower... aching more... i'm totally unmotivated... i'm falling apart... i need you back sam... i need you here with me...

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 03:56:24 GMT

I'm Happy

Tue, 09 May 2006 02:25:01 GMT

pain... all sorts... but whatever... i've delt with pain before and it doesn't have one fucking thing on me... i've beat it before and i'll do it again... watch me

so....

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 03:34:35 GMT

Since you didn't say it..... i guess i will.... Happy 4 months... i love you...

AIDENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 05:53:08 GMT

OH MAN... AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEE CONCERTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD DAMN IT WAS AMAZING!!! Aiden puts on such an amazing show.... it is incredible... i got to spend the night with sammy at a great concert.... she bought me the aiden cd so i could get it autographed... i got the whole band to sign it one by one... they all gave hugs... and nick said i smelled good... it was funny... anyway... AMAZING NIGHTTTTTTTTTTT SAMMY I LOVE YOU WITH ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL of my heart.... i'll see you tomorrow on the bus.... i hope you had as much fun as i did...

...

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 04:04:13 GMT

...Sammy I love you, I hope I make you happy...

Tonight?

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 05:09:56 GMT

Tonight was Taste of Chaos, it was great... I got a little annoyed with some stuff/someone, and then I got bothered by any little thing that happened... I really overreacted I think... And I feel like shit that I acted that way around Sammy... I love her with every bit of my heart... and I never want to make her upset by being stupid... If it wasn't for her in my life, I don't know where i'd be right now... Sammy, all I can say is thank you... for being there for me, for being you, for having the most amazing smile that makes everything better when I see it... I love you, and knowing that we are going to spend the rest of our lives together(I know we will) makes me the luckiest person alive... good night, it's now time for sleep.

hmmm

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 18:38:55 GMT

periods about to end... i'll be short and simple.... im happy... i love you sammy... and i always will... i know many people say not to think of anything as permanent.... but i know this is... we can make it through anything... i love you

Awesome Day!!! (Sarcasm Much?)

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 01:51:57 GMT

Today was awesome... I lost my Ipod.... my mom flipped out on me because of it... she called the bus people and they pretty much said I was royally screwed... now I'm extremely irresponsible and yeah... today was awesome... the only thing i can see as good today is that Sammy is in my life... i'd be lost without her...

blah

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 03:14:55 GMT

blah... can't really think of anything to say but that... not tired anymore... not really awake either... I'm just... blah... =(

One month

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 05:02:31 GMT

As of today, me and Sammy have been going out for one month. She is my world. I love her and ALWAYS will(I promise)... We are going to be together forever... I know it... She's upset about stuff... and I hate seeing her upset... I feel so powerless...nothing I can do to just take her pain away... But if I could take it away, I would. I love you Sammy... I am yours(and always will be), and you are mine... That's all I can say, and that's all that matters... Dream well...

Another Week...

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 18:39:45 GMT

Monday... My knee is really sore, and I've had a headache since homeroom... Was up for a while talking to Sammy on the phone last night... It was great... like I said before, the phone is the next best thing to actually getting to be with her. I'm staying after school with her today, which will be cool, since durring the week we really don't get to see eachother too much because she always has so much homework. Friday she was talking about some show she is probably going to. I'm stuck at the house because it's my mom, and my brother's birthdays. And, I'm stuck in the house on sunday too, because it's my brother's party. I invited Sammy over for both days, but I don't know if she is comming to either. If we can't hang out durring either of those days than maybe we could hang out on saturday... bells ringing, gotta go

Saturday?

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 21:02:19 GMT

So it's saturday... Lets see how my day has gone so far. Woke up at 7:30 to help get my brother ready and whatnot so my mom could take him to see his dad. I made Sammy, the only person I love more than words, feel "weird" about something... I found my old best friend's myspace profile... me and him used to be like brothers... I haven't talked to him in years... because now his life pretty much revolves around getting high with his friends... and I refuse to associate with that shit. It really hurt seeing his myspace... Seeing what he's become... ugh... anyway after all this i went to CVS for stuff for my lip. then I talked to Sammy on the phone (the best part of my day, even though it was when she told me that she felt weird about something.) Our conversation was cut short because George needed me to come help him move furniture for a friend of his. I'm obviously back now... I'm tired, my lip hurts, my knee hurts, my throat is sore, and all I want to do is be with Sammy. I really hope we get to see each other tonight, that way my day stops sucking. Now i'm gonna go play my bass or my guitar or something... maybe i'll leave a message on her cell phone then get some rest until she calls me back. I want to see that new movie Hostel... maybe we could see that tonight. i'm gonna go...

hmmm

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 18:34:51 GMT

Tired...headache...bored... ugh... It's Friday, and I can't wait to get home... I have to watch my brother until like 6:30, maybe 7 at the latest. After that me and Sammy are supposed to hang out. I can't wait... I've been looking forward to the next time I get to spend time with her. Anyway, Period's almost over, I'm gonna go, I'll write later.

Tired

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 18:28:40 GMT

Ugh... I'm really tired... I want to go to sleep. So last night I got my mom to agree to get in the van so I could drive to Dunkin Donuts. It was closed, so we went to the one in Maple Shade. I got Sammy a Coffee Coolatta, but didn't get it to her until like quarter after 10. Listening to music right now, in the library during study hall... Anyway... downloaded some Alkaline Trio songs last night, so now I have 4 complete albums... I really like them... anyway... gonna go... maybe I'll do my homework that's due next period... that would be good... I want to go home and sleep... that would be really good.

ZZzzZZZzzzZZzzZz

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 18:36:44 GMT

I'm in study hall right now... period 11/12... really bored... but I didn't feel like sleeping, so I came to the library. I've been trying to think of what to get Sammy for her birthday... I pre ordered her the My Chem CD she wanted, but that doesn't come until after February 7th, so that'll be a late gift. So I want to find something else to get her for her actual birthday... Spent all of last period with my Ipod on shuffle, and now I have the Alkaline Trio song, Blue in the Face, stuck in my head. I'm really tired. It was really nice to walk on the bus as tired as I was, and see Sammy... I can't think of a better way to spend my mornings each day, then with her. I want to go to the mall. Kind of random, but oh well... Period's over...off to math then homeeeeeee.

=)

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 21:30:37 GMT

Sammy stopped by with Elyse on their way home from the bus stop. I got to see her after all... I was right, seeing her for even those few minutes did make everything better... I love her so much.

ughh

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 19:44:40 GMT

Mom hates me... doesn't look like I am going to be able to meet sam at her bus stop... UGH... hopefully i'll get to see her tonight.

Ugh...

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 17:56:49 GMT

So far, today has sucked... I woke up at 6:55 and realized I missed my bus... My mom refuses to give me a ride to school after I miss the bus because she says it is "My responsibility" if I miss it. Sam called me from the bus, to make sure everything was okay... which was great... it is really nice to know she cares about me that much. I could tell by her voice that she was upset... although she refused to admit to anything... So I've felt like shit all day because either I made her upset, or she was upset about something else and I wasn't there to comfort her. Hopefully I'll get to see her tonight for even a little bit... My mom says that I'm not aloud to leave the house, but the baby has a doctors appointment at 3pm, so if she gets here, and leaves early enough I'm gonna sneak to Sammy's bus stop and walk her home. Even if those few minutes is all I see of her today, it will make everything better.

Lunch, Movie

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 04:17:40 GMT

Today, I woke up early, and did some more laundry. Then walked to Sam's around 1:15. Sammy and her mom made lunch, which was great. We went downstairs and watched The Lost Boys(old 80's vampire movie...go see it if you haven't), and snuggled on the couch. We wanted to find somewhere to go Ice Skating, but it was closed(we're gonna go another time). So we stayed downstairs on the couch together, and watched TV for a little bit. Trish called, and might be getting us Taste of Chaos tickets, which would be amazing cause the line up is great, and me and Sammy have been talking about going. I had to leave at 8, which sucked... but at least I got to spend as much time with her as I did. So... School tomorrow... it sucks... but things will be different now that me and Sammy are boyfriend and girlfriend... I'll actually look forward to going to school, just to see her. The other day Sammy got me to promise her I would sing to her(my voice sucks) so I found a song that I liked, and it has an easy guitar part, so I'm going to finish practicing it, hopefully in the next day or two, so I can play it for her... I hope she likes it, even though I can't sing for my life. I keep the bear she gave me in my pocket, it doesn't leave my side. I wish words could describe how happy she makes me.